Personally, I've come to scorn twilight.

It isn't even written well. Bella is whiny. The idea is pretty overdone too. The only decent part of the book was the gentlemanly vibe Edward gives off. Not enough to make me care for it.

And the fantards are annoying as fuck.

End.

Ha, well.
I don't turn into a werewolf or anything.
Seeing the moon makes me very nostalgic.
When I was little I'd climb on my roof with my friend and watch it. And the stars, the whole deal.
That time, was so much calmer and simpler.
I find myself longing for that again. 
I haven't laid back on a rooftop in so long.

What a complicated friendship we all seem to have.
I have come to dislike Cat
her promiscuity has turned me off whatever good traits she may have had.
I hate seeing her fall over the guy I genuinely cared for...
in front of her boyfriend.
I can't stand to have her around with me and my friends (they're mostly guys, you see)
this is very frustrating.

I'm at least over the guy now.
Maybe.
Three years is a long time to swoon. I'm distancing myself.

The thought of her still hitting on him disgusts me, however
Aaron deserves better. ZACK, more than anything deserves better.
How dare she toy with him like she does. Saying they're together, but
she doesn't pay any attention to him. He's starting to call himself ugly.

And they get to have a lovely weekend together, while I'm
in a hotel by myself being I have to stay in OC for my sisters graduation.
Can't follow everybody to the bar, so I'll be sitting on the curb calling people
like the lonely kid I am. Probably wishing for such alcoholic beverages as the ones
my family would likely be consuming.
She's gushing about all the great things they'll be doing
throwing in the occasional; ohh if only you could come
I'm starting to feel only anger towards her.

And I wonder,
if I hate her.

that artistically i've been faltering, my sketches aren't as pretty as they used to be. but i'm getting much better with realism. recently i've been much more musically focused. pandora is great, its this online radio. you can pick an artist or song, and it'll make a radio station for you that fits into the genre/style of it. you can get some lame songs, but i've found a lot of great ones. so its cool. currently i'm learning a few new songs on guitar. mainly lilium, the 'hard' version, as the site calls it. it is tricky, but i love it, so i'm gonna be really persistent in practicing it. my voice suddenly is able to get pretty low too, so its great.

currently i'm trying to switch into a different school. my school is aiight, and theres a handful of pretty awesome people that go there. but those great kind of people aren't just in one school. i need to do whats best for my education too. not to mention, my school is technical, and i'm definitely more artistic. as much as i admire people that are experts in those complex, technical fields, i feel terribly uninspired by it. the IB program offers a lot of high-level classes that will hopefully challenge me. and i love that thought, that i won't be falling asleep in class anymore. my friend makes it sound really fun, too. everybody talks the school down because it looks really ghetto, but thats because they spend all the money on the inside, not the outside. they have like flatscreen tvs in the classrooms and new computers and everything. and you can take chinese, haha. maybe i'll try it, if all goes right and i get moved there. but in 11-12th grade (when the IB program actually starts) you can take japanese, and that holds my interest more. i'm already studying it, actually. :] but yeahh, the school seems to have a LOT of greatness to it. i'll make sure to get all the cool kids' numbers before i go, so i don't lose good friends, ut i think in the end IB will do more for me than my current school ever could.

when it comes to my own affections for people i've been pretty unsure lately, but. it isn't terribly important, and stressing over it won't do a thing for me. one is taken and the other is undoubtedly not interested in me. i've been mellowing out lately, and these complications that would vex others are starting to feel pretty insignificant. emotion isn't something you should complicate or pressure yourself with, it's something you should be content with and enjoy. living in the moment means you can't stress out over things like that, yeah? maybe i'm psychobabbling, but it makes sense to me, and that's all that matters.

ha.

In reality I realize that I'm basically (talking)typing to a blank and unresponsive hunk of metal, being I don't consider my way of thinking terribly interesting, and it's not like this site is really the type where everybody interacts. But anyway. I've never really known how to start a blog, so I've stopped being so picky about it. In reality I could care less about first impressions, why should I here, yeah? So if for some reason something that breathes reads this other than me, hello.